I’m about to do the unthinkable. I never thought this day would come, to be honest. I had to think about it for a couple of months, weigh the pros and cons, and seriously consider the fact that I just might be certifiably insane. What would I be missing? Would my life be over? What the hell will I do with myself? How will I survive? Then it struck me like a lightning bolt. These thoughts are precisely why I need to do this. I need to shut down my Facebook page. That’s right. I said it. I’m shutting it down. Not permanently…I’m not that loony. The plan is to shut it down for the summer.
For the most part, I have enjoyed Facebook over the past few years. I’ve gotten to know people better, and I like that I can see what’s going on, and share in people’s life events. But over the past year or so, I’ve found myself more and more irritated with the nonsense and insignificant dreariness that people feel the need to share with the world. I’m confident that I can make it through my day without knowing where people ate dinner the night before, what cashier is out sick at the local Walmart, and whose kid saved the world from some imminent disaster. I can manage to drink my morning coffee without seeing someone’s 137,868th selfie or picture taken by their bff. Here’s a newsflash: We all know what you look like…you haven’t changed since yesterday. I’m also confident that I can survive, and so too will other people survive, if I don’t share the crap I share, too. Facebook is ultimately a crapfest of who did more, who did it better, who looks better, who went more places, who has a better imaginary life, who has a smarter kid, not to mention those awesome vague posts that are simply an attention-getting tactic. I need a break. I spend more time being irritated than I do enjoying.
As I thought about doing this, I realized I need a plan. I can’t just go cold turkey without figuring out a way to spend my time sans FB. At first, I was almost in a panic and came very close to ditching the whole idea. Then I thought, what did we all do before the internet and social media? We all managed to have a life before Facebook was invented. So, I made a plan. This summer, I am going to do the many things I’ve claimed I didn’t have time for over the past several years. I am going to read as many books as I can. I am going to go to the gym several times a week. My family joined the YMCA, and my kids are just as eager to go exercise as I am. We are also doing a major nutritional overhaul in our house…no more junk food or processed food. Well, occasional junk food. Let’s be realistic. I used to draw and do artistic things. I want to start drawing again. I find it incredibly relaxing and enjoyable. I lose hours at a time, just by creating a drawing. I also want to get my house in order so it’s not an embarrassment when people drop by. I HATE cleaning, so if I get it cleared out and have a plan to keep it up, it will free up time to do the things I enjoy. I want to get back to nature by going to the beach, going on hikes, or just sitting outside and reading. I want to spend more time with my kids and give them my full attention. I want to write.
I’m sharing this all through my blog for two reasons. One, it’ll keep me honest. If you all know I’m ditching facebook, then you will also know if I sneak back on. I don’t have the self-control to do this on my own. I need to be able to tell myself that I’ll look like a spineless moron if I don’t do it. It’s the embarrassment factor, which is always a good way for me to not do something. The second reason is that this is all part of an experiment that I will be writing a blog post on in September. The experiment is just to see if I can do it, and what I can accomplish by getting rid of a serious time suck in my life. If I can do it, other people can, too. Life is too short to waste time reading about what other people are doing. Life is about going out and doing. If I die tomorrow, I will be much more satisfied that I spent today sitting on the beach, reading a book, talking to my kids, and enjoying all of OUR moments.